lunsfuhd:

My #mcm is myself. For people to see you at your best, they have to see you at your worst. No why am I showing you the most dreadful picture of myself? Well, my weight has always fluctuated since I was a kid. Now while I can’t understand the impossible weight and beauty standard that women are subjected to, I have had my own person struggle with packing on the fat since I can remember. Sure I had my period where I flashed my abs at the age of 17 with my big Afro hair but those days have long since past. I know what it’s like, better than most, to eat your feelings when you’re sad, lonely or depressed. And I know how awesome that entire jar of Nutella or that box of Oreos taste. I’ve been in a constant loop of looking better and eating right, only to have it turn around the next week after something made me upset and I would eat horribly. And my body just kept getting worse and worse. I consistently forget that while junk food makes me happy for a moment, being healthy makes me happy indefinitely. I have tried again and again to stick to a program but inevitably I fail. So perhaps if I strip away the layer of bullshit, where I try to appear better looking in the right light (whilst secretly feeling awfu)l, and I actually face the fact that nom not where I want to be publicly, then I am holding myself accountable for the next step, instead of letting the cycle repeat itself. Perhaps I’m showing this to you to say that you’re definitely not the only one and I could be a beacon of inspiration. Not to change who you are to fit other peoples needs, because I feel you should be whatever will make you happy, but to change into the person you yourself want to be. So good luck Stephen. You’re going to need it.

This is the most beautiful thing. Haha. Like seriously. As a guy I can totally relate. All my life I was really fat. Like doctores were concerned when I was a teen. I lost tons of weight when I was like 17 but the cycle of “feel bad, eat junk, feel worse for eating junk, make myself sick, feel bad for making myself sick, eat junk to feel better” continued well into my early twenties. Now at 24 I’ve finally made the decision to stop the cycle. Ive been eating right and going to the gym. But thank you for expressing what ive felt all along

lunsfuhd:

My #mcm is myself. For people to see you at your best, they have to see you at your worst. No why am I showing you the most dreadful picture of myself? Well, my weight has always fluctuated since I was a kid. Now while I can’t understand the impossible weight and beauty standard that women are subjected to, I have had my own person struggle with packing on the fat since I can remember. Sure I had my period where I flashed my abs at the age of 17 with my big Afro hair but those days have long since past. I know what it’s like, better than most, to eat your feelings when you’re sad, lonely or depressed. And I know how awesome that entire jar of Nutella or that box of Oreos taste. I’ve been in a constant loop of looking better and eating right, only to have it turn around the next week after something made me upset and I would eat horribly. And my body just kept getting worse and worse. I consistently forget that while junk food makes me happy for a moment, being healthy makes me happy indefinitely. I have tried again and again to stick to a program but inevitably I fail. So perhaps if I strip away the layer of bullshit, where I try to appear better looking in the right light (whilst secretly feeling awfu)l, and I actually face the fact that nom not where I want to be publicly, then I am holding myself accountable for the next step, instead of letting the cycle repeat itself. Perhaps I’m showing this to you to say that you’re definitely not the only one and I could be a beacon of inspiration. Not to change who you are to fit other peoples needs, because I feel you should be whatever will make you happy, but to change into the person you yourself want to be. So good luck Stephen. You’re going to need it.

This is the most beautiful thing. Haha. Like seriously. As a guy I can totally relate. All my life I was really fat. Like doctores were concerned when I was a teen. I lost tons of weight when I was like 17 but the cycle of “feel bad, eat junk, feel worse for eating junk, make myself sick, feel bad for making myself sick, eat junk to feel better” continued well into my early twenties. Now at 24 I’ve finally made the decision to stop the cycle. Ive been eating right and going to the gym. But thank you for expressing what ive felt all along

Doing what I love with people that I love. @tg012 @devlin_mathis  You inspire me and drive me to aspire musically. 
Thank you. 
Also I like this photo because my arms look very Madonna-y and I’ve been working very hard at it. Lol. 💪💪💪 (em Whittier, California)

Doing what I love with people that I love. @tg012 @devlin_mathis You inspire me and drive me to aspire musically.
Thank you.
Also I like this photo because my arms look very Madonna-y and I’ve been working very hard at it. Lol. 💪💪💪 (em Whittier, California)